You inspired this one

I sometimes want to trade my life with someone. And not just anybody, I want to trade my life with a sucky life. Like a woman in Kenya or something. Why? I just dont feel like I always deserve to have the life I do. And I know I should appreciate it more, but I dont even live my life the way I should. Ofcourse I am neverending thankful for having this wonderful life, but why was this life given to me? In some weird, absurd way I feel like I should live a miserable life. And lately I've been feeling kind of miserable too. I have THE best friend in the whole wide world, she is sort of my reason to live. Without her I don't know what I'd do. But I just feel like I'm missing something. While thinking about it, some miserable, sad feeling is just spreading in my body. I want someone there, I think. And not another friend. Maybe I want a boyfriend. Someone who will be there for me and care about me. Everytime I see a couple on the bus or wherever, I just get SO jealous. Wishing it was me who was feeling those feelings. I don't know how to describe it, I just feel so lost. Uææ, lol. I'm so pathetic.

And so the lion fell in love with the lamb

It's getting pretty sucky to be at school at 07:20 in the morning, when the first class doesn't even start before 08:00. Yeah, we don't like the bus system. I like some of the busdrivers, though. SOME of them! The others are just mean. MEAN! mohahah

I don't want you to be afraid

Can't think of anything more annoying right now than the fact that I can't watch the VMA's just because I don't live in USA. SO ANNOYING! I want to see why everyone is freakin' out over Kanye. I love the man, but it doesn't really come as a surprise that he did something stupid. He is still a great artist, nothing can change THAT. All though I feel bad for Taylor Swift. Such a sweet girl! Kanye is still my man.

Just can`t seem to understand how time is flying by so fast. It was only a couple of years ago when I was wishing time would run faster. Now I can`t seem to decide what I want. On one side, I want the days to move a little slower, so that I would have time to do everything I don`t manage these days, and maybe get a little more sleep. On the other side, I want the next year and a half to move so fast that I would not even have the time to blink. Then I could move in with my best friend, and start living my life the way I want to live it. Ahh. I just want to graduate, and move far away with my favourite person in the whole wide world. Oh well. Enough for now! :P

Why so serious

Just a random girl from a random country, wishing she wasn`t random to that one special boy she never even met.